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Pilots call me Starbuck you may refer to me as God (cpt_starbuck) wrote,
@ 2008-05-18 22:18:00

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kara/lee, pr0n

Fight or frak?
(OOC: Locked, kthnx, and adult content)

Kara wakes, gasping, heart racing, images still burned in her mind. She can see the colours when she closes her eyes, can feel the paint drying on her arms in the shape of Leoben's hands...

This is getting ridiculous. Every frakking night, the mandala or Leoben, or both, and she's sick of it. She needs to think of something else, needed to burn the images out of her mind.

She sits up, kicks off the sheets with a strangled scream, and clambers out of bed. Her feet carry her to the room next door, where Lee is lying in bed, on his back, blankets tangled around his waist.

This is exactly what she needs.

She climbs onto the bed, wearing only underwear and a tank top, and straddles him. Her hands slide along his chest, so familiar, broad, firm, not at all like the one in her dreams, and she growls, wanting him to wake up so she can frak his brains out.

"Lee," she says, in his ear, hips rocking against his. "Lee, wake up," she murmurs, letting her teeth graze his earlobe, dragging her mouth along his jaw, placing kisses along his face, and eventually his lips.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-19 11:52 am UTC (link)

Lee is asleep and completely at peace. But his dream is interrupted. He can feel hands on his chest, hear his name being called. Half asleep his hands skim the thighs and grips the hips of the body above him grinding against him.

Teeth graze his ear his neck and his body responds. Cock hardening and he groans as he's kissed.

Lee's brain starts catching up with the physical and his eyes fly open. It's Kara and he's confused they weren't frakking, correction, they weren't supposed to be frakking yet here she was.

"Kara? What's going on?" He asks now slowly getting worried as he pulls away from her kisses.

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	cpt_starbuck 2008-05-19 01:24 pm UTC (link)
	For a few seconds its perfect - his hands on her hips, feeling him harden underneath her, his groan. And then he wakes, and starts thinking. He pulls away. "Need - ah - this," she gasps, leaning in to kiss him again. "Lee," she moans, rocking her hips again. She knows he'll say no, pull back, but she doesn't want him to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

apollo_adama
2008-05-19 02:56 pm UTC (link)

She doesn't stop though, tells Lee she needs it. But this is wrong, feels good but its wrong.

"Kara," he says with a warning tone in his voice as she grimes herself against him once more. It all feels so good but it isn't supposed to be happening.

It takes every ounce of Apollo's resolve to do this. He grabs onto her hips his fingers digging into the skin, stopping her from grinding.

"No," he says forcefully. "What the frak is going on here?"

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-19 03:34 pm UTC (link)

She sighs, and stops when his hands grab her hips, though it makes her want him even more. She takes a deep breath, heart racing, and forces herself to stop.

She slumps forward, wrenches out of his grip to roll off him, but doesn't move too far away.

"Nothing," she says, but even she doesn't believe herself. She sighs, and looks over at him.

"Sorry," she says, the reality of what she'd been doing sinking in. "I shouldn't have - I just -"

She sighs again.

"I should go," she says, sitting up, head still spinning.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-19 05:39 pm UTC (link)

"No," he says again his anger rising. "You don't get to jump me and then frakking disappear without explanation. Gods Kara, what's up with you?"

Lee puts his hands to his head trying to clear it a second, trying to process what the frak is going on and he isn't able to really make clear judgements.

She says she should go, but clearly something is up. Lee's kind of at the end of his tether. He's been angry and frak knows he's been patient.

He takes a deep breath.

"Kara, stay." He says quietly. "Just tell me what the frak is happening because I don't know whether I'm coming or going or what exactly I'm supposed to be for you. You can't just come in here and jump me when I'm frakking sleeping..."

He runs his fingers through his hair.

"I'm not pitying you, but you know I want to help. Just give me a frakking clue."

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-19 06:31 pm UTC (link)

She stops at the edge of the bed, breathing shakily.

"Gods, Lee, I don't know what's up with me," she sighs.

She turns around to face him, brow furrowed.

"I know, Lee, frak, I shouldn't have come in here, but I just woke up, and ..." she trailed off, bringing her hands through her damp hair in frustration.

He wants her to tell him whats happening, and something in Kara snaps.

"You want to know?" she asks. "You really want to know what's happening, what's going on in my head?" Her voice is rising now, and she's angry and she can't keep it all in any longer.

"Every night I dream of Leoben and that frakking mandala," she shouts. "That frakking toaster that got in my head and won't get out. And the things he said to me. Like: 'You have a destiny, and it's already been written.' And I dream about that, and think about all the things he's said that have already come true. And the other things he told me. That I had a daughter, and that one day I'd hold him and tell him I loved him. And how one of those things turned out to be true, even if the other was a trick that I was stupid enough to fall for. And I dream, and I wake up and I can feel the paint on my skin, and can see the colours and the pattern, and feel his hands and -" she pauses, taking a breath, hands shaking.

"And I just needed to feel something else," she continues. "So there you go. That's it. As frakked up as you expected, Lee, or is it worse? And tell me, how do I make it all better? Cos I have no frakking clue how to deal with it any other way than what I've been doing."

She turns away again, needing to get out of the room. She doesn't want to meet his eyes, afraid of what she'll see there, and just wanting to get away. She really didn't mean to say any of that, and hates this feeling of vulnerability. Hates how terrified she is that she's scared him away.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-19 10:38 pm UTC (link)

And there it is, it all spills out everything and Lee had expected some of it, he had known a little of what she'd been through from gossip mainly but to hear it from her, what its still doing to her and he feels anger on her behalf.

"Kara..." he says tentatively. "Its pretty frakked up."

She looks like she could kill him but he continues. And had she just said that she had told Leoben that she loved him?

"But you know what? Your stronger than that Starbuck, he's a frakking toaster. He doesn't know you, made some lucky guesses, played you. Big frakking deal."

He moves so he can watch her carefully just in case she launches herself at him again.

"You want to make it stop, make it go away you have to face it, you can't run anymore. Yes its frakked up and no I don't understand all of it, I can't but I can and do believe in your abilty to overcome it. You're one of the best pilots the fleet has ever seen and you have made the world an entertaining place by being the biggest pain in the ass Saul Tigh has ever had. Gods Kara..."

He knows how he wants to finish that sentence he just can't.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-19 11:04 pm UTC (link)

She shoots him a look when he says its pretty frakked up. That's the understatement of the century, but whatever.

"Easy for you to say," she says. "Weird thing is, he does, Lee," she says. "He does know me, knows things about me no one knows. I don't know how, but he knows. And it's cos of that I believed him when I should have frakking known better," she says, shaking her head.

Oddly, she feels better, somehow, that someone knows. Lighter. She hadn't wanted to tell anyone, and if she could do it over again, she wouldn't. But now that he knows, it feels better.

He talks about how strong she is and she laughs at the bit about Tigh, sliding closer to him on the bed, not reaching out to touch him, but wanting to be near him.

"You know me, Lee. Cylons, Tigh, they don't scare me, those I can take. But all of this - it's different," she says, shaking her head. "Frak it, look at us," she says, indicating the space between them as proof of how much of a coward she could be.

"I don't know what any of it means, I can't get my head around it. The symbol, the destiny, Leoben, my mom..."

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apollo_adama
2008-05-20 09:57 pm UTC (link)

Lee raises an eyebrow when Kara indicates the distance between them on the bed as how hard she finds it to face some things.

"Look Kara we can work it out, I'll help. We find out how the toaster knew those things and then we can rationalise it and deal with it." What he really wants to ask but daren't is what Leoben knew, part of him frets that this was stuff he had no clue about and really doesn't want to push.

He tentatively takes her hand.

"What I said the other night about being there no matter what, this is something I want to help with."

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-20 10:10 pm UTC (link)

She smiles at how simply he sees it. That's Lee, everything is logical, and neat, and she wishes her brain worked like that.

"He claims he has 'spiritual clarity' and that he can see patterns, knows what part I'm meant to be playing," she says. She shrugs, examining the sheets as if they're fascinating.

He takes her hand and she bites her lip, blinks quickly, curses the way her eyes are stinging. She squeezes his hand, tight, too tight, probably.

"I'm glad," she says, eventually. "That you're here," she adds, completely unnecessarily, and then looks up to meet his eyes.

"Can I stay?" she asks, hating the hesitant note in her voice. "I promise I won't jump you again," she adds, trying for a joke.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-20 10:20 pm UTC (link)

She squeezes his hand tightly and he can see her fighting with herself for control.

She talks about Leoben and Lee finds himself hating the Cylon more than he thought possible.

Kara asks if she can stay adding she won't jump him. Says she's glad he's here.

She looks vulnerable and there's no way he's telling her that, but he can't refuse her.

"Sure," he says simply. "Whatever you need."

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-20 10:28 pm UTC (link)

She smiles, grateful, and slips under the sheets silently. He lies back again, and she moves closer to him automatically, needing to be near him, the warmth of him drawing her in.

She drapes an arm across his hips and his arms wrap around her, pulling her closer, and she sighs, relieved, contented, feeling ... safe.

She doesn't know whether she hates this or loves it. She hates that she needs it, but loves that she can have it, even if she won't let herself believe it can last.

He smells amazing, that scent that's so Lee and she finds herself smiling and relaxing against him.

"This," she says, eventually. She's not sure how long has passed since either of them spoke, so she adds "I need this," she says into his chest.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-20 10:41 pm UTC (link)

Kara clambers into his bed and into his arms. He lets her settle her head on his chest his arm around her.

Time just drifts by and he feels her relax next to him it feels to him like time is slowing down.

Eventually she breaks their silence. Saying that she needs this. But what is this? Him just holding her? No more talking, he isn't sure.

Lee just squeezes her to him a little bit and plants a kiss on the top of her head.

"Me too," he says quietly.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-20 10:57 pm UTC (link)

She feels his kiss, and her eyes flutter closed.

Gods, how does he do this to her? She holds him tighter, marvelling at how right it feels.

This should terrify her, should make her want to run, but she's tired. She hasn't had a proper night's sleep in weeks, and he's holding her and she doesn't want to fight it anymore.

She pulls back so she can look him in the eye. She smiles, it all feels so perfect and the fear of screwing it up hasn't set in yet.

Frak it.

She feels a sudden burst of recklessness. She's already told him about the dreams, about Kacey, just told him she needed him. If this was going to come bite her in the ass, it's already bad enough. What's one more thing?

She takes a deep breath, smile twitching slightly as she works up the courage. She pulls him close again, chin resting on his shoulder.

"I love you," she whispers in his ear.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-21 09:36 am UTC (link)

This was what Lee could do, be a presence for her hold her and he can tell she still wants to fight everything on one level. There was a time when he thought that he would wait forever to be like this with Kara, part of him thought they'd never be able to just be like this.

He loves her so much, but she still knows how to surprise him.

She tells him she loves him, whispers it in his ear and he's floored.

Lee's known Kara long enough to know she doesn't say it and for all he knows she's already regretting it, but he also knows she means it.

"I know." He says quietly, one hand idly drawing patterns on her back. "I love you too, Kara."

He strokes her cheek with his fingertips and kisses her lightly.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-21 10:30 pm UTC (link)

It's easy to say, actually. The thought of it is so much worse, but the words themselves are simple. Because she means it.

She can feel how surprised he is when she says it, and that makes her grin into his shoulder. She likes shocking people.

She pulls back to look at him, and his fingers brush against her cheek.

And she wants to say it again and again, over and over because its true, and its like nothing she's ever felt before, makes her almost giddy enough to forget the fear gnawing at her gut.

He kisses her, and she kisses back, tongue tracing lightly along his lips.

"I love you, Lee," she says again, breath hitching, though she doesn't know if it's fear this time, it could be relief or joy or sorrow, or something she can't put her finger on, but whatever it is it's big, and she pulls him even closer.

And she lets herself think it, for just one moment... 'Maybe I can do this, after all.'

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apollo_adama
2008-05-21 11:07 pm UTC (link)

They kiss and Kara's tongue traces along his lip, he's missed being this close to her and when she repeats that she loves him her breath hitches.

Lee can't help but smile and lean in for another kiss. Starbuck pulls him even closer and he finds his hands sliding down her sides to where tank top ends and there is skin to touch.

Part of him is still reeling that she's said it unprompted and he's confused enough to only really be able to go with instinct and that instinct is to touch.

Lee starts trailing kisses along her neck.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-22 12:01 pm UTC (link)

His smile is infectious, and she returns it, hand running along his back, up to his neck, fingers running through his hair.

His lips on her neck feel amazing, and his fingers against her skin make her shiver slightly.

She brings her hand around, reaches out and after a brief hesitation, runs her fingers along his jaw. She pulls his face up, and looks into his eyes. Gods, he's gorgeous, and she feels her lips curling into a smile again as she leans in to kiss him.

She's so happy, and she ignores the ticking clock in her head, counting down to when it all goes wrong like it always does. For now, she loves Lee Adama.

And she doesn't care who frakking knows.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-22 05:52 pm UTC (link)

Lee nuzzles into Kara's hand loving her touching him.

Just seeing her like this completely honest with herself and him is an amazing turn on. Kara pulls his face towards her and she smiles widely as she kisses him.

Whatever happens next, Lee knows he'll cherish this moment. He's loved her for so long he knows that it won't be an easy journey - he's not that naive and he's prepared to fight for her, whatever it takes.

But right now Lee just wants her. The tank top she's wearing is just too much fabric and he slides both hands underneath it in order to remove it, a wicked glint in his eye.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-22 06:17 pm UTC (link)

She raises an eyebrow as his hands slide under her tank. Feels so good and she really wants him, because he's Lee and she loves him.

She's going to keep thinking that and saying it over and over, just in case something happens again that means she can't.

A wicked idea forms in her head, and she pulls back, hand moving to hold her shirt in place.

"No," she says, and his face falls. Its almost cute, and she resists the urge to grin.

"I promised you I wasn't going to jump you, and I meant it," she says, keeping her face straight, but her eyes are shining with mischief and lust.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-22 07:05 pm UTC (link)

Kara stops him taking off her top and he's crestfallen, she did say she wouldn't jump him and he'd been so insistent earlier, an apology is on the tip of his tongue when he notices that her eyes are sparkling and there is the tiniest hint of a smirk about her lips.

"You frakking minx." He growls lustily. Lee grabs Kara and pushes her to the bed positioning himself on top of her.

"You're going to pay for that one Captain." He says in a low gravelly voice.

One hand is pinning her wrists to the bed the other snakes its way under the tank top.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-22 07:30 pm UTC (link)

He finally twigs what she's doing, and she laughs, loud and wickedly.

"You're such an easy mark," she says, through her laughter.

He pins her to the bed, and his voice makes her shiver and she looks up at him, smirking.

"Am I, Major?" she asks, raising an eyebrow, eyes flickering to the hand pinning her wrists. His hand running along her skin feels so good and she arches into his touch, moaning softly.

She leans up to run her tongue along his neck. "How'm I gonna pay, huh?" she asks, voice husky, before her teeth close just a little roughly around his earlobe.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-22 11:11 pm UTC (link)

"Oh I'm easy am I?" he growls as she laughs.

He loves the way Kara is defiant and lets her up momentarily to remove the frakking tank top before asserting himself and pinning her again.

Tracing his fingertips over her torso and following it up with nips licks and kisses. Loving the way she moans slightly and arches into his touch.

She asks how she's going to pay and he pushes her gently but firmly back onto the bed eyeing her hungrily as she's laid out in front of him. "I'm sure I could think of ways."

He hooks his thumbs into the waistband of Starbuck's pants and tugs them down. Kara lifts her hips obligingly and he casts them to one side. He scoots down the bed a little both hands tracing patterns on her thighs.

Apollo locks eyes with Kara and gives her a dirty little smirk, before lowering his head between her thighs and parting her lips takes a slow lick from her entrance to her clit relishing her taste.

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cpt_starbuck
2008-05-22 11:26 pm UTC (link)

She tilts her head.

"Yeah, you are," she says, grinning.

He pulls off her shirt impatiently, she laughs at how eager he is, how rough he is, the nips and kisses along her skin feel so good.

He pushes her into the bed and she smirks at him. "Looking forward to it."

He strips her, and his hands start running along her thighs. She sits up, leaning on her elbows, and looks down at him. He looks back at her, lips curving into a smirk to rival any of hers. Gods, its one of the most erotic things she's ever seen, and it sends a spike of arousal through her.

And then he lowers his head, and starts doing amazing things with his tongue, and she lets her head hang back and brings a hand to twine in his hair, moaning and gasping, every nerve in her body tingling.

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apollo_adama
2008-05-22 11:39 pm UTC (link)

Lee feels her hand twist in his hair as he taunts her clit with his tongue, bringing her close to the edge before backing off a little enjoying her whimpers of frustration.

He places the palm of one hand on her stomach and starts his teasing afresh, sensing her building again to a climax. He pauses once more kissing and nipping at her thighs.

He slides a couple of fingers inside her and flexes them feeling her tighten around him and uses his tongue again, this time to make her come hard.

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